He who has hope has everything

sometimes i feel like working very hard.... sometimes i have a strong conviction to be a high achiever.. but sometimes i question myself about the need to push so hard. what is life and living at the end of the day? Is scoring a string of As so important? Is enjoying life more important? The hard fact being that without good results = no good job (at least for a start) and therefore lower chances of success at the end of the day which equates to no good life. on the other hand, a good paying job = high stress and high demand cos nothing is for free. end of the day = full of money but no free time to enjoy, relax, appreciate life. so what do i want? work til midnight everyday? get so sucked into work and neglect everything else in life.. but studies is everything to a student.. isnt it? what if one day when i look back and realise that all i knew was how to complete work on time? how to score an A but I have neglected what is important at that point in time. I cant turn back the clock. would I have the courage to turn up in school or work one day and tell whoever that I cant finish my work. I need X more days. By requesting more time or not being able to meet deadline has become a bane in our society. U cant meet deadline because u are 1. lazy 2. poor in time management 3. not committed to your work 4. incapable 5. Untrustworthy 6. ill disciplined... what esle? we are told all these since young.. by our parents, y our teacehers, by our superior. therefore, today, we see completing work on time more important than anything else. friend's birthday = no time to celebrate cos exams coming/ project to submit. tennis game tmr = no time as well.. got work to do. meeting up with old friends = not so important... i shall meet up with people who can help me in the immediate period or the near future. ai~ what is life all about?

i'll keep exploring. I'll keep changing. at least, I know that i will not look back and regret cos I will not allow work to consume me. I will learn to enjoy work and make best use of my time to live a fulfilling life.. not one that is bogged by work all day. exams coming.. so what? chill man... I dun need that A to prove to the world that I am smart. I know that i can lead and create miracles. I know that i am intellectually inclined and a good decision maker.... that's all i care abt for now.

nite