exams over and 1 week hoz coming to an end

My exams are over! However, it is still not the time for celebration yet...cos' I dun think that I will be able to achieve my initial target of near 4.0 GPA. I would be the happiest person on earther if I dun get a C grade for maths. Ai~ as usual, I am so careless... I pray that some divine forces out there will bless me with good grades. Let's wait and see... hopefully, i only see As and Bs on my transcirpt. else, I shall stay home to cry liao... life is so difficult. I have worked hard.

This coming december hoz is really going to be extremely busy for me. Some many commitments. I have yet to plan out my time... well, I can only plan my time when all the variables are settled. I pray that evrything will fits in nicely. Training got to be one of the priority, cos I will be going for compeition overseas very soon and I have the repsonsibilities towards the team. Work?... I need the money and to prove myself but well... what is most important to me now? Can I gain more from doing SK or training hard and gel into the team??? I will have to make my stand soon. Next, I have to attend many meetings and games... all for the hall.. N my driving? hopefully I can pass before my 21st birthday. haha.. that would be great! For the past few days, I have been enjoying myself...TOTALLY carefree and 'stressless', but soon... things gonna pick up agiain. and very soon, I will need to prepare for the next sem. seeing the same old faces again? boring... for now, i think i should just rest my tired soul and allow myself to rest totally. I WILL BE BACK. well this hoz:

1. Learn driving
2. Train hard for the upcoming competitions
3. Pray hard for good results
4. Learn about investments
5. Set new goals and reflect upon the semester
6. continue to learn and be active

I have a role to play in this world. I will make best use of every second.

exams over and 1 week hoz coming to an end

My exams are over! However, it is still not the time for celebration yet...cos' I dun think that I will be able to achieve my initial target of near 4.0 GPA. I would be the happiest person on earther if I dun get a C grade for maths. Ai~ as usual, I am so careless... I pray that some divine forces out there will bless me with good grades. Let's wait and see... hopefully, i only see As and Bs on my transcirpt. else, I shall stay home to cry liao... life is so difficult. I have worked hard.

This coming december hoz is really going to be extremely busy for me. Some many commitments. I have yet to plan out my time... well, I can only plan my time when all the variables are settled. I pray that evrything will fits in nicely. Training got to be one of the priority, cos I will be going for compeition overseas very soon and I have the repsonsibilities towards the team. Work?... I need the money and to prove myself but well... what is most important to me now? Can I gain more from doing SK or training hard and gel into the team??? I will have to make my stand soon. Next, I have to attend many meetings and games... all for the hall.. N my driving? hopefully I can pass before my 21st birthday. haha.. that would be great! For the past few days, I have been enjoying myself...TOTALLY carefree and 'stressless', but soon... things gonna pick up agiain. and very soon, I will need to prepare for the next sem. seeing the same old faces again? boring... for now, i think i should just rest my tired soul and allow myself to rest totally. I WILL BE BACK. well this hoz:

1. Learn driving
2. Train hard for the upcoming competitions
3. Pray hard for good results
4. Learn about investments
5. Set new goals and reflect upon the semester
6. continue to learn and be active

I have a role to play in this world. I will make best use of every second.

exams over and 1 week hoz coming to an end

effort does not always lead to desired performance

I had finally completed my psychology paper. I had put in so much effort to prepare for this sunject despite it not being my core subject, but I want to do a minor in the subject, purely out of interests... seems like the chances are slim now. I am not even confident of securing of a decent B! Sad. I worked so hard and i thought.. yes i thought I was well prepared. It turned out otherwise.. not that the qn were tough. not at all.. just that my focus areas were wrong.. very wrong. I did not expect silly questions to come out. ai~

Please give me at least a B and allow me to do a minor!!! I have been a good student .. haha

Now working on my last paper...maths!! I fear maths.. but I love it too .. haha . so contradictory. I am already very distracted at this moment.. thinking of how to enjoy after friday. But keep in mind the story of the pilots who were shot down on the return leg after securing a victory in the sky. I am NOT going to allow this to happen. As my coach says, the game is not over yet. Focus and fight as hard.

-the last lap-

Distracted; lost

It is 1am in the morning. I have not started revising me maths. What am i doing? I wish I could concentrate...why?

I am sick and tired. Give me a break. I need something else more than the book.

2 more papers to go ( pyschology and maths)

A grade for Organizational Behaviour and Design. Pray hard.

THREE down, Three more to go

haha.. i guess that I have been using this blog as a way to relieve some exam stress through penning down my personal thoughts. A good way indeed... for those of u out there who are not blogging yet, maybe u can consider to start now, cos writing down your thoughts is a good way to express ur emotions and to 'clarify' some conflicting emotions within oneself.

Anyway, I just completed my accounting paper. Not much feelings.. well the paper was slightly more difficult than past yr paper and I made a few stipid mistakes here and there (as usual..when can I be more conscientious and stop making all the careless mistakes?!^%&^%) Actually, this is the people whichI most feared.. really. after the mid-sem quiz I thought I am going to fail this subject, but surprisingly, I did better than what I expected for the assessment and I got an A for my written report!! That really came as a BIG surpirse cos' there were really few groups which got A. In retrospect, the pain and agony were well worth it.

Today, I am feeling slightly relaxed and happy because the 'most feared' paper for me is over. At least, I managed to complete the paper in good time and I have really done my best. Well, the weeks of preparation was well worth it. I really pray hard now that I will be lucky enough to score at least a B for accounting.. I hope that I am not asking for the sky. Mmmm.. please... may all the luck be with me (external locus of control) ... I just cant bare to see a C grade on my transcipt. Please, at least, reward me for my hardwork and modest learning throughout the entire semester. I have really put in a lot of effort for this subject cos I know that I am not good at it..

Mmm..thats all for accounting. I will now start to prepare my final leg for OB tomorrow. A is my target. Well, I believe, therefore I can achieve. This is my better subject. Hope to do well tmr.. k.. continur tmr. ( I am looking forward to this friday..)

Good luck and all the best to all!

2 Down, 4 more to go

Feeling so tired and unmotivated now. No idea why.. probab;ly suffering from 'Friday blues' haha. Can't believe it, I cant even allow myself to take a break on friday cos next week, I have all my core subjects coming up... one after another. I really pray hard that i can survive the week. Can be really very tiring, expecially when my life becomes so routine... rest, books.. off to exams. lunch and toilet breaks in between. ai~ sighz.. ( One more week kk.. hold on to it)

For effective comms today, I thought i din manage my time well enough. I was rushing through the last qn like mad.. obviously din think that i do well for the last qn which takes up 30 marks.. please have mercy on me. This is really an idiot proof subject. The last thing I want to see is anything less than an A on my transcript. Please.. it will look so horrible. I will really be very sad cos I think I will deserve a grade of at least and A in any case...

Well, i always think that the component structure of this module is flawed. 50 percent on assessment and another 50 percent on exams. Well, the bets part is that they will tell u that u got an A for the continuous assessment...but they never let you know the exact score. Also, the A is always subjected to moderation. Honestly, with so many unknown...might as well not reveal to the students at all! Right? I am disasppointed by the fail that many things are not transparent in the school system. The administration will certainly leave a component of the score for them to 'moderate'..should I say to manipulate? Also, my seniors have told me that it does not matter for the continuous assessment. There is a tendency for the score to be moderated downwards. Wheareas, the final paper is always the most important. ie. C for continuous assessment, A for final paper = final grade of A. If vice versa, the final grade will prob. be a B or B-, never an A. Back to effecitve communication.. so if one person cant speak well and present well... it does not matter. Pray hard to get at least a B for the continuous component and do well for the written paper... the ultimate result will be a desirable A. At the end of the day, ask that person to speak to a large crowd or make a presentation, he screws it up!! But still, on paper, he is an A student!

What is the world coming to? We need to promote greater transparency within the school. What has been set as a guideline should be adhered to strictly and not subjected to 'backdoor' moderation. I am NOT against moderation of final scores, but please, be transparent about it. Even when we ask the tutors how the system works, they do not even know! This is very ridiculous... Want to beocome a world class instituiton? Long way.. and only possible if we change the cultures and the systems.

Yours Sincerely.

ONE down, FIVE more to go

Wahzzhaha.. so soon. first paper today. Business and Finance. Before I even start writing this entry, I promise myself to forget about this subject after this entry and keep my mind on other subjects.

Mmm.. pretty satisfied with my performance (would have been better if i was less careless.. cant believe that i missed out the calcalation for the terminal cashflow..anyway..too late). Well, minusing a few errors here and there.. hopefully that I still can get my A for this subject. Should be able lahz.. freak. anything worse, I am going to check my paper!! hahaha.. A good start so far. anyway, results will only be out the third week of Dec. By then, I would have forgotten about everything.

2 more days, i am going to take my effective communication exams.. so people say that it is 'chicken' but i am not going to take it easy. hope to secure a A+ this time. So far for my continuous assessment portion I got an A overall. A little more to complete the task!

I am really looking forward to this holiday!! counting down now!!! I will end my exam on next friday..haha. then I can start to enjoy 1 week break before going back to work. Meanwhile, I promise myself to learnt how to play the guitar this hoz and to start preparing for investments next year..afterall that is the mai purpose of taking Business Finance... application!! N hopefull earn some additional income with my stock investments... wanna know my profolio? haha..never.

to those (if anyone) who are reading my blog.. sorry for all the dull and boring stuff abt the examz.. I promoise more exciting stuff soon... at least after my exams.. haz. I have a pretty interesting life... but too bad. everything on hold since it is the exam period now. I will post some pics too when I have the time.

"Your own sense of value determines the quality of yourperformance. Performance is only a reflection of internalworth, not a measure of it."

Good Luck and be happy!