Be Focused.

2 days of competition over the weekend. was pretty fun and enjoyable.. most likely my last competitive matches. nice spa after 2 games on sunday morning. time to take a back seat and focus on my studies and research for the rest of the academic year. this semester looks though... do not realy have any inspiring tutor. vague syllabus and not knowing exactly what to expect for the exams... game plan not out.. arrgghh.. scroing at exams is not only hardwork but only abt executing a strategic game plan to score the components during the semester...

it is time to remind myself to be focused. study hard and work hard becuase knowledge and academic achievements are most critical in the new economy. i must continue to build up a strong foundation in all that I am doing.

Remind myself:

1. Banish all negative thoughts. consistently maintain a healthy mindset to face the challenges. I have been through many challenges.. at the end of the day.. nothing is impossible. never give up.

2. eat well, sleep well. maintain a healthy mind and body.

3. Believe: If i work hard now, I can enjoy later.

4. Rid my mind of all distractions. FOCUSED.

Last but not least, i think i need very good luck and support all round to do well.

Life is too long if only think of suffering and working but tooo short if we enjoy ourselves to the fullest.

Start of New Semester.. Final Year

It's the second week of the yr4 sem 1.. pretty slow start. well, maybe it's a good thing cos I have been working for the last 3 months. rested pretty well for the first week of school. nothing much basically.. still pretty much in a holiday mood. so.. how am i going to max out my final yr in sch?? hmm.. at least got to think abt it for this semester.. time flies.. no time to be wasted anymore.

for a start... handed over the softball team. pretyy happy that the next gen has taken over. I guess playing for this team is very different from the teams that I used to play for.... winning was taken for granted back then. coming from a team that was respected by most and one that delivered consistently felt good. this team was very much different. I got to see a different side of people management. well... we had players from very diverse backgrounds who had different experiences and skill levels. it wasnt easy to come together to play.... winning was never on our agenda. Had i wanted and pushed hard to achieve.. the team would most possibly had collapsed. It was about building a sustainable team and ensuring that softball doesn't die off a natural death in this school. I think I have achieved my objectives of gathering a group of committed players. I hope that we can push the envelope further and aim for more this coming AY. In retropect, I guessed that I am very convinved that people differ because:

1. discipline - i have seen too many dreamers/ talkers who could not deliver. what's worth is pure talking and bullshitting?
2. motivation level - having the winner mentality and desire to win is extremely important
3. Inborn talent - some things are born with and can never be nutured.. intelligence/ ball sense
4. Commitment - Being good is one thing... being committed is another that completes the picture.

that's so much abt softball..... i am as happy being a player/coach. In this game, there is nothing like being the second best ... there is only ONE champion and ONE best.

Back to academics: challenge to maintain FIRST CLASS HONOURS. from day one in school.... i have been reminding myself of this ULTIMATE academic goal.. I am still there but on the line with 4.57. I want it so badly and I know that I can achieve... there is only ONE chance to be an undergraduate. I will do whatever it takes to maintain it this semester and for the final semester... but well looking at it. this semester's result is CRITICAL. DO or BREAK!

1. I shall remain focus on my studies at all time - work out a studying schedule and FOLLOW it.

2. Lecture notes are not good enough for A grade - Read textbooks and find additional information online. I will master all my 6 subjects this semester.

3. Treat all subjects equally.. I shall not be complacent. Remember the story of the pilot that was shot down on his way back. This is not the final run.. keep running. be ALERT.

4. Take notes meticulously during all lectures and tutorials. If the tutor sux... do my own revision and extra work to learn... i am an officer.. I am an adult. I shall be responsible for my own learning and take charge of my own learning.

Please.. may god bless me. ha. I will work hard and I hope to be rewarded for my hardwork =)

Next... physical: to get back my IPPT GOLD!!! I want to wear my badge when i return to work. keep running.. 9min30sec target. MIN 2 x 1 hr gym per week. Be disciplined.

Family... ai~ sianz. I find no peace at home..... damm bad but i am sick of my mum and some times my dad.. one is simply lazy and the other is too overworked and impatient most of the times.. I wish i dun have to sit in my dad's car when he is driving.. horrible expericence... luckily i got my aunts and grandparents beside me.. haa. like a safe harbour.. a place that is neat/ clean and serene. why why why.... how to help my lazy.. unmotivated mum? I have studied so much.. and got a psych minor.. but none of these taught me how to deal with lazy/ unmotivated/ pessimistic people.. I just get so sick of this type of people.. softball training likewise.. the full of shit and no action people.. I need to learn to to be more tolerant... learn to empathize... learn to love all people.. what an uphill task man. zhen... as usual.. workaholic.. always busy with work... relax a bit k... life is more than work. learn to enojoy the finer things in life and be happy.

hmm.. my break is almost up after this long post.. shall continue again =) cheers!

smooth wind and following seas.. may all be well.