21 April 08

Monday. just came back to my room after lunch. completed one paper in the morning - maritime prof & soc. did ok. Hope for A+ if not A. Halfway through my exams. 3 papers completed. Satisfied so far, not much suprises and I did my best. Well, 3 more papers to go. though ones.. important ones. I have to work hard to score. First to survive 2 more papers this week, then to prep for the last paper next week. Whether I like the subject or not is not important. The bottomline is that I must bag my As. 3 more As to go. I will work very hard.

remember the story of the pilots who got shot down on their return leg after a victorious air strrike. The game is far from over. It is the mid point. the most critical point where false perceptions and sluggishness could lead to failure. This is the time to work doubly hard. end of the game will be declared on 1130 am on 29 Apr 08. That is the end. Now... still in the midst of war. Fight til the end. Fight for victory. Think of celebrations only after 1130am 29 apr... by then, i will have ample time to think of how to celebrate. Not Now.

- continue fighting- cheers =)

Mixed feelings

hmm, just completed spatial science paper. it was my most feared paper. cos when the course started, i had no idea what the lecturer was talking abt... CAD and GIS are alien to me.. i have never come across them nor hear them.. well, i knew CAD existed but that's all. and i never expect myself to start using AutoCAD Map 3D to do a project.. it was simply amazing. i studied extremely hard for the exam and I am glad that it is over. well, i guess i did perform pretty well for the CA (50%).. should be an A Grade for my tests and assessment. As for this exam, I really did my best (no regrets boy) and I hope to score at least an 80 marks out of 100. Will I get my A? well, may luck be with me.. i need the A grade yar.. 5.0. If not, i think i really deserve a minimun of A- ba.. i am certainly not a B gradr! haiz.. I am sure i knew quita a bit abt this GIS thingy now. we'll see.. may i be blessed =) cheers, I have 4 more papers to go. feeling good. next week will be a week to be conquered. I look forward to after 29 Apr. Freedom day!! I often miss my target by a little bit. I have that this time round, I can achieve my targets = GPA 4.8 for this semester. and also, win the book prize for exchange report. I need to push my CGPA well above 4.5 to feel safe. Come on.. I can do it I believe that i can achieve. If i could achieve all my targets for the AY, I would really celebrate with my family! cheers man

start of the battle

this is just the beginning. 1 paper completed. I am pretty glad with my performance for quality mamagement. Hope that I can secure an A or even an A+! Cheers! But i am worried that $%^& idiot Capt. will screw up my plan. freak. he is one of the worst characters i have ever met with. cant imagine that such a person exist on earth. He taught the wrong stuff and whe I corrected him.. he actually accused me of not reading his notes. well, i did browse through.. but i am not stupid enough to learn from all the wrong that he presented. I have pride sia. He ought to be shot dead! there is no such certificate as ISM certificate.. why doesnt he admit that he is freaking wrong? he is the biggest loser on Earth! check the official ISM Code! I am certainly right!well, i bet that he cant find a job outside therefore he chose to hide in this school environment where many of the whimps around him dare not do anything to him. useless in charge and useless people with 'authority'. these profs are obviously more conerned about their own ricebowl that to seek to improve the faculty. at the end of the day, they work for themselves not for the students. such is NTU. Disappointing. I wondered why people are apparently on the waitlist to get in!

well, life goes on. My only wish now is to do well and graduate. so that I will not see these people again (not my classmates). I can no longer be bothered to give my feedback or think of helping the school. it is beyond me and i dun wish to waste my time and efforts. I am totally dampened and diasppointed. All the heads and deans.. u are well paid and possibly blinded too. Good luck to you all. A poor adminstration spells the downfall of the organisation.

Give me luck, give me my As... many many As!

He who has hope has everything

sometimes i feel like working very hard.... sometimes i have a strong conviction to be a high achiever.. but sometimes i question myself about the need to push so hard. what is life and living at the end of the day? Is scoring a string of As so important? Is enjoying life more important? The hard fact being that without good results = no good job (at least for a start) and therefore lower chances of success at the end of the day which equates to no good life. on the other hand, a good paying job = high stress and high demand cos nothing is for free. end of the day = full of money but no free time to enjoy, relax, appreciate life. so what do i want? work til midnight everyday? get so sucked into work and neglect everything else in life.. but studies is everything to a student.. isnt it? what if one day when i look back and realise that all i knew was how to complete work on time? how to score an A but I have neglected what is important at that point in time. I cant turn back the clock. would I have the courage to turn up in school or work one day and tell whoever that I cant finish my work. I need X more days. By requesting more time or not being able to meet deadline has become a bane in our society. U cant meet deadline because u are 1. lazy 2. poor in time management 3. not committed to your work 4. incapable 5. Untrustworthy 6. ill disciplined... what esle? we are told all these since young.. by our parents, y our teacehers, by our superior. therefore, today, we see completing work on time more important than anything else. friend's birthday = no time to celebrate cos exams coming/ project to submit. tennis game tmr = no time as well.. got work to do. meeting up with old friends = not so important... i shall meet up with people who can help me in the immediate period or the near future. ai~ what is life all about?

i'll keep exploring. I'll keep changing. at least, I know that i will not look back and regret cos I will not allow work to consume me. I will learn to enjoy work and make best use of my time to live a fulfilling life.. not one that is bogged by work all day. exams coming.. so what? chill man... I dun need that A to prove to the world that I am smart. I know that i can lead and create miracles. I know that i am intellectually inclined and a good decision maker.... that's all i care abt for now.

nite

exams are coming once again

well.. the time of the semester is here again. exams. hmm.. every 4 months and i have to go through yet another set of 6 papers. when will this end? soon.. 1 more year to go after this semester. pretty sick and tired of this cycle. going through the semester with substandards tutors/ lecturers.. doing some projects.. go for quizes and then exams. everything is simply so planned and routine. omg.. i need to break from this cycle. the good news is that come mid may, i'll be working at a nice company with a nice office and a breathtaking view of the sea.. hurray=) but before this.. i must survive this period of depression + mugging + lifeless days + i duno what. as usual, my concentration is extrememly poor, hence, my writing of this entry in the midst of my revision. i just cannot stand reading and reading the same stuff over and over again.. i undertstand most of the stuff.. but the bad news is that i have to be forced to memo all these crap for exam purposes and then contl alt delete everything right after each paper. how meaninggul? the only consolation is that i hope to be rewarded with decent grades after going thru all the sufferings and preparations.. which idiot in mankind history started this system? ai!~ ought to be executed dude. now, i just pray for better concentration.. some good luck... not to be careless during the papers cos I usually am. and what else? give me more memo space and capacity to mug... tons of brain cells wasted .. crap.. i am looking forward to a good meal.. and a good drink and a good fun time to relax and enjoy!

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